NEVER HAVING CHILDREN 22.32pm

Well that's slightly extreme, but my god putting the kids to bed was so difficult.
Started with Anais, tried to put her to be at 8pm, but she was screaming so I changed her nappy and tried again, she screamed and screamed and screamed so I gave her the dummy and shut the door and after 10 minutes she went to bed. Yes that's right TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. She woke up an hour later for more milk and more screaming, so I gave her the dummy and shut the door again. She, to this moment, is still asleep and I'm praying to God it stays that way. OH and I just threw that cat (literally) out the door because she was MEOWING too loudly (fuck loving the cat Sarah, IT IS EVIL) anyway Adam was next. He literally gave me EVERY excuse in the book! "oh if we do this i'll go to bed" etcetcetc I had to read the whole of a f-ing book with him (48 PAGES) and the after lots of calming he went to sleep, 2 hours after his bed time but hey. AND NOW I'm sitting on the balcony, in the dark, with killer Mozzies, praying neither of them wake u and that Fabrice and Myriam come home NOW. also, some arse hole upstairs is watching what only can be described as the 'worst of xfactor'. Mother just texted me saying well done and that it's the first time and it can only get better...which is hopefully true.
It's strange...when Ana was crying and clearly upset and distressed, I felt like crying too, it was awful, I felt so mean and horrible making her cry...god...bloody wolf.
Anyway, yes outside in the dark getting eaten alive.
BACK TO NON CHILD RELATED TOPICS:
language classes are going really well, I have so much fun in them and laugh a ridiculous amount and my teacher, Christophe, is really good, and funnily comes from Lille, so we were chatting about year abroad and he was bigging up Lille, calling it "ma ville" = "my town" and I kept mocking him from this disagreeing that it wasn't HIS town.  Also had lunch today with some of the course mates and will do again tomorrow, they are all really nice and we were laughing at general Frenchness and how we are all inadequately prepared for French life.
I need a beer so badly...or a shot of vodka
STILL LIVING IN FEAR IF THE BABY WAKES UP
what is my life?
lolz
Tina, stop hating on da English yeah, ma mind is well confused at da moment!
LOVE TO ALL (hope it made you laugh...someone should be...)
PEACE AND BLESSINGS XXXXXXXXXXX